At 8:42 PM on
Monday, December 25, 2006
kinda like a quarterly staff party of sorts for front desk.
so we headed to grand hilton for their buffet dinner.
man. it's fabulistic can?
i don't mind bringing my dad there for dinner if he comes over in january.
then after the sumptous dinner we had bowling.
haha.
after so long not bowling, my skills seriously down the drain.
- no pun intended-
so ma-lu la! kena drain so many times.
wahah.
anyways.
this post is dedicated after i read miss woo wenqi's post about otc.
firstly, miss woo!
the videos cannot load up one leys...can check again?
it's probably the first time in maybe almost 2 months that i am thinking back on so much about programme memories. the thought about everyone having fun for otc is seriously cool. that is the best scenario i can hope for anyway. but then realising that i am not there to experience it for myself made me feel so....
empty.
voided.
pitless.
passion-less.
worth-less.
i really should have fought hard in the first place.
i can't understand why i didn't do so in the first place.
reading wenqi said that this year prog is really rocking, just made it worse.
not that it's anything against you wenqi.
but it's just the feeling that came out of it.
i mean.
prog is my life.
i was just thinking about it i think 2 nights ago.
i really should have forced myself in singapore.
after this year, there will be no other opportunities for me to do the same thing that i love to do.
even if i join some uni and get involved in the SU, things would definately be different.
the people.
the feeling.
the environment.
the style.
i realy wanna join the committee.
but how can i go about asking?
i mean, the newbies might find that abit over-board i guess.
you know, like some girl come back and then suddenly get place in the comm without any questions.
and! if i join prog committee, what about the current prog heads?
i want to be involved too.
but i don't know how to go about asking.
shit.
i'm dreading this feeling.
the same feeling that made me think that i regret my decision.
I WANT IN!!
i wanna be in.
if some kind soul out there who happens to read this post,
please let people in the comm know about this.
i really don't know how to go about asking anyone about this matter.
i've been putting this matter off till now.
time is running short.
i'm returning home soon.
i know i wanna be involved.
the sleepless nights.
the endless screaming and shouting.
the numerous laughing, gossiping, chatting, prata-ing sessions i would have.
the late nights showers, even in the boys' room.
the apparently-and-obviously-sleep-deprived-woman is still willing to give up all that to be in the comm.
i don't know how to put it
but i really want it.
i know there's really nothing i can do about it.
except write about it.
i would be so bloody thick-skinned if i asked wouldn't it?
wenqi!
how? in LOVE,
pr social butterfly pam