yet socialising
At 3:19 AM on
Tuesday, September 05, 2006
had lunch with wenqi and terence at billy bombers. so that's one more place off my list.
then went to walk around with them to look for belts and shoes for me and also kept an eye out for terence's slippers. hahs. had such a fun time with them. laughing at people. laughing at myself. laughing at us. laughing at the things we saw. great time with you guys man. gotta do it again when i'm back ok?
dinner with fen and k.c. went to east coast for jap..but alota people so we walked on to have a drink at gelare before walking around somemore to finally settle at this irish eating place just by the beach. really nice place ya. would probably bring kenneth there when i'm back or something. their fisherman's pie is HUGE! i had a wonderful time trying to finish it. really *thumbs-up*. then went to lau pa sat for dessert but couldn't squeeze in any more food so we settled for some kinda oolong tea that's good for our digestion. lols. i actually think it is helping in digestion cos i'm feeling less 'zhang' than just now. hees.
kenneth called when k.c was sending me home on the road from clementi to ngee ann poly that stretch of road. said some things which left me confused. k.c. kinda got the vibe i guess cos he asked if things were alright. and said that if things were meant to be then it would be. also said that he believes that i'm strong enough to handle emotions. the 5 months apart is not that bad when compared to others'.
things alright? i guess..-shrugs- i mean how bad can it get right? darling was making a fuss about the meeting and why i shouldn't go for it. like if it affects my life after the meeting then i should go for it. if not, why go for it if the conclusion is not gona affect me. c'mon. what kinda question la. i mean, i am not a kind of person who would desert my interest, or in this sense, my group when it comes to these crucial stuffs la. people whom i worked with for dnd and foc can attest to that fact.
yes i admit i do put in alot of effort to meetings and stuffs. but that's only because i love what i'm doing and that i care for what will happen in the future with regards to the organisation that's why i am concerned and going for the meeting. oh sure. i could always just msg them and say i'm sick or something. but then i'll be pricked by my conscience la. i mean, this kinda thing is not as if i have already made plans for the day you see? if there was lunch appointments which i cannot postpone or change date or time then ok. i would still try to make my ass to the appoinment after i'm done with the meeting. that's my priority. i feel that if my friends are understanding enough, they would know the situation and try their best to suit to an alternative rather than make a huge fuss and all.. ok fine. maybe i'm going too far in this but still, i just had to write it out la.
and my brother surprised me just now when after putting down the phone with kenneth, he told me something along the lines of:
kenneth is not understanding enough. my brother understand that kenneth wants to spend more time with me, but when i have last minute important matters, it should come first priority. and if kenneth is really sincere about it, then he can always make time to meet me in the morning and after my meeting. and if he is REALLY sincere, he should wait for my meeting to end by waiting for me to end at the venue of the meeting.
my gosh.i was surprised at my brother's remark. cos he's normally the kind that will just keep quiet when he hears i am on the phone with kenneth and when i'm arguing with kenneth on the phone, he would see if i'm alright but not say anything to me after or during the call.
oh well..all is part of life and growing up. i have to go through these..in order to proceed further into the relationship. it's all a matter of understanding and tolerance that is important i guess.
i know that you have been through what i am going through.
i also know that you now know what janice went through.
but do you understand what she went through?
do you really understand?
if you did, then shouldn't you be empathising with me?
i feel that only when you do, then would you be able to understand.
then would you be able to accept what i am going through now.
true i don't have all the time in the world.
true i can't delay my flight.
true i still want to spend more time with you.
but do you think it is really possible to do all these?
there is a limit to certain things.
and these limits cannot be made or adjusted just because i want it to be so.
if i could
i would make each day last 48 hours.
i would make you take leave each day till monday.
i would make you come with me to korea.
i would make my meeting to be on wed in the afternoon.
hell i would even make the meeting be non-existent.
i would stay in singapore for my internship.
but i choose to go korea. it's all a matter of choice.
so what would you choose?
to stay pissed with me for the week when i have 7 days left?
or to make good use of the time we have left to explore nice places to eat?
me?
i choose the latter.
but as the saying goes: it takes two to clap.
so what's your choice? in LOVE,
pr social butterfly pam