At 2:24 AM on
Monday, August 28, 2006
mum also brought me to lunch at coca on saturday..feel so fulfilled.everytime after coca i'll feel that way..
exam for ob is over. think i'll do pretty ok..exam for dpd not yet..this wed..will be hell..confirm guarantee chop.oh wells.i seriously do not want a supp paper for any subject.will work my ass off hard for dpd.
people are getting appoinments with me alr.good? cos i'll be able to fill out my days.then i could set other days aside for mum, sis and bro.
i still got things to do.
shopping.
meeting with friends.
dinner-ing.
lunch-ing.
chalet-ing.
drink-ing.
club-ing.
mans.how to finish all these in two weeks?
having paper on wed.
then t10 gathering after paper.
MAYBE drinks with ken's friends at wala at night.
dinner with my girls on 1st.
chalet on 2nd to 3rd.
dental on 4th.
lunch with ter and wenqi after dental.
wah lau gang dinner on 6th.
dnd comm dinner on 10th.
flying off on 11th for 8am flight.
-ok i admit. i'm scared. i'm scared of leaving. scared of changes.
i'm worried about how i would be in korea for 5 months w/o seeing my mum. i sure would miss her. i know i don't say that to her but i would definately miss seeing her. and her cooking.
i'm reluctant to leave darling behind. 5 months. let's not even mention 5 months. a mere week is already a torture for me. how would 5 months turn out to be? and what might happen in between it all is all heaven's will i believe.
i'm worried my absence would make it difficult to maintain relations with family, friends and people i care about. then returning back and having to make that re-connection. not everyone is up to it. maybe because people have new things to do. have other aspects of life to care about.
i know this would be a good experience and exposure. but i sometimes do stop and ask myself if it is really worth it? spending money, separating from people, giving up on certain aspects of my life which could have been fulfilled if i was staying in s'pore.
i know i can't actually have the best of both worlds. or in this case, the best of two options. but couldn't there be a better compromise? and if i should decide to stay and work in korea for good, then what would become of my ties back here? i feel too deeply to people. people i care about, people i love. this i know. sometimes i feel it is bad to do so. but in my opinion, how can one feel properly if one does not feel deeply?
bah. i'm blabbering. in LOVE,
pr social butterfly pam