..damn you national service..
At 8:08 PM on
Thursday, August 10, 2006
crap.
just got news that boyfriend is going for attachment..like next week or the week after?
frankly i don't care which week it is gonna be.
most importantly is he's going to be on attachment.
which basically equates everything to :
- no phone calls.
- no meeting up through out the week.
- no one to motivate me for exams.
- no celebration for him.
- no time spent with him.
is this CRAP or CRAP?!?!
-shakes head in frustration and tries to diffuse my anger to the room by screaming mentally-
yes.i just used the word 'diffuse' and i mentally screamed to the room without making noises.
i hereby proclaim that i have officially turned mad.
and here i was thinking that i would be able to do shopping with him.
i am tired.
tired of the visa thing which i have not done.
tired to think of my absence in singapore.
tired to think of my departure to korea.
tired of waiting and then...
tired of ending up disappointed.
tired of holding back my tears.
i am drained.i feel drained.i am emotionally drained.i am mentally drained.
have exams in 15 and 20 days.
have not gotten down to studying.
have a french speaking test in 6 days.
have a 6 hour flight to catch in 32 days.
have friends i have yet to meet up with.
have things i wanna do before i leave.
have......
oh bloody hell.
was actually thinking alot about SU and me giving up running for it.
then came this news and then i'm not thinking about SU that much anymore.
-cries to my laptop-
yes.i have been emotionally unstable these couple of weeks. i think i actually try to hide it when i'm in school. emotionally unstable to the point where i released the faucet a number of times already.
no one i can talk to.
no..make that no one i would want to trouble with my problems. in LOVE,
pr social butterfly pam