engulfed in emotions
At 5:42 AM on
Sunday, September 25, 2005
but seeing people with their special ones make me ponders and think-back.
maybe not think-back.but just wonder and probably dream about my future.
yes. i admit.
i do not NEED a guy by my side.
however, i WANT a guy by my side.
don't laugh.it's easier said than done.
jeff will insist that i asked for it. and if only i had accept....oh wells.it's over and i seriously have nothing for him so i can't possibly bluff myself and him too. it IS for the better.
i do envy girls who have a guy by them so they can rightfully claim their guy as their own.
i can't bluff myself.this i confess.
and yes.
i sure have the signs and symptoms of missing being in love.oh wait.make that missing the chase and initial stages of being in a relationship.
the pursuit never fails to quicken my heart-rate, have that admirative glint in my eyes, be daring in my actions, and the passion is incomparable.
so get me a fling!
*puts on nerdy specs*
hereby, let me copy-and-paste the dictionary meaning of 'fling':
1. The act of flinging.
2. A brief period of indulging one's impulses. See Synonyms at binge.
3. Informal. A usually brief attempt or effort: You take a fling at it.
4. A brief sexual or romantic relationship.
*throws of nerdy specs*
in this case, definition of 1,2, and 3 are definately out of point.
point 4. is an interesting point which, again, allow me to break it up and further elaborate.
a brief sexual encounter: that's too rash. and i will regret having such a relationship in time to come.
a brief romantic relationship: now, that is more like what i have in mind too. a brief romantic fling which i can have with no strings attached.
why?
because,
1. i prefer the chase to the relationship.
2. the initial passion is most sacred and should be shared then.
3. by the definition of fling, i need not worry about being accountable for my actions.
simple reasons as stated above.
of course, with a fling in mind, there are possible candidates whom i have taken note/noticed.
of course.i don't know them....well YET.hahas.
*puts on nerdy specs and refers to a clipboard*
allow me to list the candidates applicable for selection:
Candidate 1: the cute guy at one of the citylink mall's shop.i swear.his smile is oh-so-killer.
Candidate 2: the guy in fish n co. that limin promised to find for me.
Candidate 3: a guy that grace has promised me from down under.
Candidate 4: the guy with dyed hair working at a korean restaurant,Ju Shin Jung, at Pasir Panjang. abita shy, abita cute. hees. didn't catch his name though.
Candidate 5: the chef in the national culinary team who cooked at TAS.
hahs. i'm kidding abt the last one la.but i'm serious about the first one.
lols.no la!
i'm open to everyone except the last one.hahas.
of course, you people are most welcomed to add more people into my list of candidancy. in LOVE,
pr social butterfly pam