....words that are deep in me....
At 7:19 AM on
Monday, August 08, 2005
you could say that i've been reflecting alot on myself..the things i do or did..the people arnd me..the life that i am living right now..
don't think i could have gotten to who i am because of whatever tt happened last time..
i know i know..not nice to bring up those unhappy stuffs right? but just can't seem to let those memories go..i mean..with those memories n experience was how i became who i am today..
but then..should it have actually happened to me?i mean..it could have happened to ANYONE but it just had to be ME..i mean how unfair right?
but thinking about it from a very VERY positive side..i should be happy that it happened to me..can you imagine if it happened to perhaps a baby or a old person?..they would have been worse off than me right?..
and i also should be thankful that my condition wasn't the worse-off-case-kinda-scenario..what i had was considered peanuts compared to what were the possible and existing cases around the world ain't it?my life wasn't in danger..i just had a 'hiccup' in other words..people out there have it worse off..which means that their life is in danger and they had to take drastic measures.
so i guess i am grateful? but then..without this event happening,could i have been better than what i am now?would i have known who are those who really cares and are concerned about me? would i have been so confident of myself and be 'shamelessly' proud of myself? would i?
these questions will be left unanswered i am convinced of that..because these were just the possible scenarios that COULD have happened..but they didn't..
oh wells..it's just another penny for my thoughts. in LOVE,
pr social butterfly pam