regret..that's what i'm feeling..
At 10:53 PM on
Monday, March 14, 2005
*silent*
then reality hit me!!
..
i haven't seen him fer so long..does he still remembers that he has a grand daughter like me?
we knew he hasn't been of good health recently but it's too soon already..
he didnt get to see me one last time..
how are we getting there?
do we leave now?
but its almost midnight..
is there availability of flight seats for the first flight out to korea?
are we supposed to pack now?
what are we bringing?
what should i bring?
*pauses*
WHAT ABOUT MY EXAMS?
IT'S STUDY WEEK!!!
*jolts back*
who cares about my exams?..most important is are we (all) leaving for the funeral?
its just amazing that all these questions actually could pop up in my mind all at the same time..the wonders of the brain huh?..i was totally dazed and at a loss..
i needed someone to talk to!! -was the first thing tt i could think of doing..
and so..i picked up my phone and msg-ed WD..he called me straight n told me he had gone thru it before..happened to his mum..told me to take it easy..dont think so much..
*guess i am really thankful tt i got to talk to him though..kinda relieved me in some ways*
and after talking to WD n my mum talking to my aunts..she asked me to log online immediately..which i did on the spot..checking for availability of seatings..
the two of us really pulled our hairs' ends because the SIA network being down and all the shit-y stuffs tt wasn't supposed to happened at the precise moment..damns..happens all the time doesn't it?
mum n me couldnt sleep the whole time..checking availability took up till 4 am..and packing took up another 2 hours..till arnd 6..had to cab to nearest atm to draw cash fer the trip..at the same time got some snacks to munch on once the kids got up n on the way to airport..
reached home n woke them up..showered n changed..everyone ready? we cabbed down to changi airport to catch the morning flight..kinda snoozed in the cab ride..couldnt take it la..reached changi airport n mum wanted the kids to makan..i made a call to kh n told him i'll be away because of this reason..he told me to hang in there..said tt i'll be fine..told him i believe him..
and so let's zoom forwards to the part when i reached korea..
reached incheon airport and got my first breath of korea after sooo long..felt great to be back..but then we had to rush to get on the coach to the train station which would then bring us to the station nearest to my grandad's hospital place..or should i say funeral place..was a mad world altogether..timing was so thankfully nice tt we managed to catch all rides in nick of time..
*thank god for that!*
on the way in the coach n train got to kinda snoozed again..so tt i'll be ready to stay up all the time during the wake..that's the most tt i could do isn't it?..finally reached the train stop n met with my uncle so he drove us to the place in his car..
---was raining..he's speeding..all of us were sad..can you imagine all that?..*its really heartbreaking*my heart still aches after so long..
and so we reached the place..attended the wake..saw my aunts..cried loads..couldn't eat loads...no appetite but they forced me to eat..no choice..
the next few days kinda zoomed in n out of it..didn't know what i was doing..was crying alot..guess my eyes swelled up..
after the whole funeral was done, stayed at my aunt's place..was great tt we managed to catch up and all..missed them loads..spent quality time with them too..the bond is just unimaginable..n realised tt my uncle actually is very nice..he's just shy n doesn't talk much..my aunt's lucky to have him..pity they ain't got any kids..we also got to visit one of the markets..kinda like a 'pasar malam' but in the morning..got to relive my childhood holidays in korea..everything arnd me seemed familiar..the scent..the sights..the people..the food..got to buy some snacks too..
the night before our departure they decided to drive us up to incheon airport..this way it gives us more time to spend in the car my uncle got..as so my aunt says..had a long drive up there..stopped along the way for toilet breaks and food too..the udon was delicious i say! my sis enjoyed it..so did i..carried on the way which totally exhausted my uncle i could see..but he was strong n said he's alright..one fine man he is..
reached the airport..was freezing cold outside..had smoke coming out of our mouths..first experience for me..then headed to check in..and had a hearty breakfast in one of the restaurants there..food was great..totally..
and then the time came for us to part..as always..totally miss them so..hugged them n said my sincerest good byes..couldn't bear to leave them and the place..
and so it kinda sums up my trip back to korea..so much for a trip huh?..
*i'll miss you loads* in LOVE,
pr social butterfly pam