what is actually happening to us?..
At 7:45 PM on
Sunday, November 07, 2004
don't get me wrong people..not that i don't enjoy them gatherings..but you see..being in a big family with lotsa relatives and all..being cousins and everyone..it's quite inevitable that problems and mis-understandings will arise right?..
and so it always happens as it always did and most probably will continue happening till someone actually puts a stop to all these things..my lil bro just had to be the one kena from mumsie..kinda unfair right?..hahs..
but one thing..didn't know i side my brother soo much until i speak up for him luhs..but anyways..back to the topic..
like ever since the introduction of computers into our house..the weekly family gatherings are not even a time for bonding for the lil' ones..call me too worried or whatever.i don't really care..but ain't gatherings su'pose to be time where everyone actually asks about one another?..about how their week was?..any problems they encountered?..
or maybe that kinda talk is just my kind of imagination?..i really don't know..anyways..how i feel now is that our family has somehow been drifting apart..not direct family but the extended family..being my cousins and all..
okay..so much for me being the eldest..its wierd for me to suddenly join in with my younger cousins and go like: "heyas..how's life?...".. like DUH!...they don't even spend that much amount of time outside of school as much as me so how can i ask them this right?..
okays..so i'm taking it from the outsider kinda view..the kind that wa-wa would probably be seeing from since she recently joined our family..being Augustine's girlfriend and all..i feel that between us cousins we don't spend that much time together and all..
sad case huh?..but guess its kinda inevitable being with the growing economy and people lives improves and expectations in life increases kinda stuffs..the load of crap that is..if this is the way how life will continue to be when i grow up..us cousins drifting further and further away..i'ld rather we be locked up in some kind of secluded world than to continue living here with the growing different expectations and all..
i'm thinking now...if we do continue to behave in this way for the next ten years or so..would matters be worse and go to an extent whereby us cousins won't even say 'hi' when we see each other on the streets?..would we behave as if we don't know each other because we didn't spend enough time together when we are growing up?..
but can the children be blamed for this since they are only kids?..or should the parents be blamed when family matters actually get out of hands?..mumsie said that it's the parents responsibility to bring up the children in the right way when they are growing up..
do parents actually spend enough time with their kids?..for my cousins' case..both their parents are working and they are being cared for by their maids..a.k.a. ma-ma..like: hello!..that ain't your mother!..and know what?..in one of my cousins' family..i feel that their maid are given a higher authority than their mother itself..like hello!..she's just a maid you know?..
i'm thinking..do parents actually believe that bringing up their kids with money will work in the long run?..won't the kids be apart from their parents?..meaning they don't actually know each other as well as those kids whose parents actually take time to spend with...
i don't mean to sound mean or whatever the feeling's called..i kinda feel that in terms of closeness..i would think that my family is closer compared to my other cousins'..and you know what?...i pity them cousins not being able to spend more time with their parents and all..
....am i making sense here? i don't know..but writing this out does makes me feel better and hopefully able to sleep better at least for tonight..
well..that's just my penny of thoughts...so much for a penny huh?..
in LOVE,
pr social butterfly pam